Saturday, November 21, 2009
Know Your Freedom ,See Your Freeom,Then Feel Your Freedom
I want to take the time and share with you about what we Americans hold true and dear our hearts. Yet we forget how and why it all started. Freedom is something we all humans just assume we have. We forget what keeps our Freedom carrying on into the next generation. I know myself not being educated about Civil rights and the Laws of the Land. How can one human complain unless they know what their God given rights are. It has to start with the young to old by teaching our three year old what we as America stand for. Instead we tend to forget all the work that Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, Bella Abzug and to all the won's that I did not name. Has done for the human race. If we can teach our kid's the ABC at age five then we can teach them liberty Justice and Freedom at the same age. WE walk through life forgetting our rights. We need to be reminded every day what our rights are. So when that day comes your ready for whatever may happen like being abused or do to unjust fairness and you use your God given human right Of the Untied States Of America .With that said our Government need be more involved and the ongoing process of our birth Rights. Our media needs to over whelm about our future Rights and issues of change in rights or laws. The children of today do not value or take note of is what make this country called America. Ask yourself what are we teaching our children in school? What we need to be doing is teaching and educates the young and the old to know your rights. If we try to do one good thing like reminding someone about our rights or posting it on a blog? Just think whose life you could have or would have influences. SO please let our words and our action teach the young and adults what we stand for and Life, Liberty and Freedom.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
what Earth's Gives
02/10/08
What Earth Gives
My question is what does Americans give to the world? This is my view on this issue. To American "Art People" please don’t take this the wrong way. I’m just trying to prove a point that needs to be maid. I Love all the world’s "Art's" of humans.
The reason I bring the question to mind is that Looking at Africa and Iraq they have been blessed with such earth gifts.But yet the people's Country's still bleed their diamonds and oils. What do we do? We take their riches away not willing anyway.
So that we humans have materialism things. See this is where Americans can choose to see by buying the items don’t better Africa, and all the other countries. See the countries we take from are No better off then yesterday. They still live in boxes, shacks ,huts what ever you want to call them there not like American homes.
As I write this each time I buy something it scares me to death to think that some women or child died in vein for the things American love, and that’s greed, riches, power over all the things we buy, eat, drive. So how long are we going to sit back and let this suffering go on?
When trying to think what Americans have to offer the world, and the only thing I know is true. That is the "Art Of Humans" Meaning writer, singer, actor, or an inventor by a human. while others across the globe have earth field riches. Those are diamonds, oil, pearls that the earth creates. See Americans did have gold but the greed ate up like the last super.
While I think of this as I write how come the Countries that have all the things that the Earth or God gave them, and do you hear anything of about the human life be noted for other then war?
What Earth Gives
My question is what does Americans give to the world? This is my view on this issue. To American "Art People" please don’t take this the wrong way. I’m just trying to prove a point that needs to be maid. I Love all the world’s "Art's" of humans.
The reason I bring the question to mind is that Looking at Africa and Iraq they have been blessed with such earth gifts.But yet the people's Country's still bleed their diamonds and oils. What do we do? We take their riches away not willing anyway.
So that we humans have materialism things. See this is where Americans can choose to see by buying the items don’t better Africa, and all the other countries. See the countries we take from are No better off then yesterday. They still live in boxes, shacks ,huts what ever you want to call them there not like American homes.
As I write this each time I buy something it scares me to death to think that some women or child died in vein for the things American love, and that’s greed, riches, power over all the things we buy, eat, drive. So how long are we going to sit back and let this suffering go on?
When trying to think what Americans have to offer the world, and the only thing I know is true. That is the "Art Of Humans" Meaning writer, singer, actor, or an inventor by a human. while others across the globe have earth field riches. Those are diamonds, oil, pearls that the earth creates. See Americans did have gold but the greed ate up like the last super.
While I think of this as I write how come the Countries that have all the things that the Earth or God gave them, and do you hear anything of about the human life be noted for other then war?
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
This was and is me 4 years ago
What has changed me the most is the car accident that occurred on May
22, 2004.
I was hit by a drunk driver that was only 18 and was about to graduate
high school. His truck T-boned the car I was in on the passenger side,
where I sat. Upon impact, I was knocked out and don't remember the
actual accident, which I've been told by friends and doctors is a good
thing. The hardest part for me is that I remember laying on the ground,
coming to, and my friend asking "Nadia, who do you want me to call?" As
I laid there, a realization hit me - I had no one to call. She wanted to
call my ex-boyfriend, but I refused as he already had another
girlfriend. The saddest part is that I had no family to help me
recover from all the physical and emotional damage to come. The only
family I have locally is my daughter, who was twelve at the time of the
accident. The injuries that I had kept me from doing my daily routine of
life.
About a month into my physical therapy for the back and neck injuries
caused by the accident, I realized I had put on weight , which I had
worked diligently to keep off for the past two years. No matter what I
did, the weight wouldn't come off. I finally went to a doctor and was
diagnosed with IBS - irritable bowel syndrome. I was scared as I had no
clue what this disease could do to me. After a few months of medication
for IBS, I started getting better, but every day was a struggle for me in
every way possible that you could think of. It seemed I had "caused" the
syndrome to come on, as the emotional effects of the car accident
started to come forward. The feelings of loneliness and a lack of
self-worth, which I had repressed in the past, had come to light. And
they were consumed by every thought.
By October, I physically felt like a new me but had no will power to
get out and do things, like meet up with my friends. So I knew there was
still something "wrong" me. It was no longer physical damage; it was
mental. This accident brought out issues of my childhood that I had
never really dealt with while growing up.
December comes around. Anxiety about the upcoming holidays forces me to
deal with my pain. I decided that I needed to talk to someone about the
pain I was feeling in my heart and how empty my heart was. Meanwhile,
I'm trying to work; take care of my daughter Shelby; maintain my
household; manage care of the pets; and travel for work while still
keeping myself looking happy for my daughter. In January, I started
dealing with the things that I can't change; the things that happened
that I had no control over as a child. I'm ok with that now.
This whole time I would not date or talk to friends; I pushed away
everyone I knew. I would even say that I pushed my daughter away to some
extent. There was one person that saw me every day and that was my
counter partner at work. She knew that what I was going through was the
hardest thing in my life - gaining weight from the stomach problem.
When you're told as a child that you are fat and ugly, you tend to
believe it even as a adult. One day I went to see a specialist regarding
my depression, although I hadn't realized that's what it was. Se wanted
to put on all kind of things that I felt I didn't need. But I wasn't the
one with a degree so I did what I was told. For a month felt numb, like
a zombie. Next month I told her that I worse. So she suggested alternate
treatments and I said ok. While doing what she asked, I found myself
again started thinking of all the things I use to do and wanted to do
those things again.
I started working out again, losing the weight and being happy with just
being alive . I did make some drastic changes to my life. I learned to
cry and not be this cold person anymore. I realized that I was a very
cold person inside that would never cry and admit that I had feelings or
anything like that. I found that this was good for me and I started
dating . I found that all people have hearts and that at any given time
that it could be taken away from us. When I started dating, I was
afraid that I could not give all of my self to someone. Over time I
learned how to talk to men about this, and I think by telling them what
all I had been through, they had looked up to me more than I had ever
looked up to myself, and admire me for the will power I have to keep
going and coping with all the issues.
As of March 7, 2005, I would say that I'm on the road to recovery. Some
days are better than others; some can still be tough and overwhelming
for one person. But I know what I want and that is to live a life as
happy as I can make it with as little or no hiccups at all. With all
the sadness in the world why would there be so many books on self help
if I was the only one out there with problems? I wake up now ready to
face the day rather then wanting to run from it. They say things happen
for a reason and that God will not give more than what you can handle.
There were times I did not believe in this. As I feel better I know this
is true and that all of the pain physically and mentally changed me for
the better. I think that now when I wake up, that I have more compassion
for others as where before I had no compassion or feelings. This has
been a very hard journey and learning experience but when I look back
at what I have gained, this makes me feel better, and has changed me
into the person I wanted to be.
22, 2004.
I was hit by a drunk driver that was only 18 and was about to graduate
high school. His truck T-boned the car I was in on the passenger side,
where I sat. Upon impact, I was knocked out and don't remember the
actual accident, which I've been told by friends and doctors is a good
thing. The hardest part for me is that I remember laying on the ground,
coming to, and my friend asking "Nadia, who do you want me to call?" As
I laid there, a realization hit me - I had no one to call. She wanted to
call my ex-boyfriend, but I refused as he already had another
girlfriend. The saddest part is that I had no family to help me
recover from all the physical and emotional damage to come. The only
family I have locally is my daughter, who was twelve at the time of the
accident. The injuries that I had kept me from doing my daily routine of
life.
About a month into my physical therapy for the back and neck injuries
caused by the accident, I realized I had put on weight , which I had
worked diligently to keep off for the past two years. No matter what I
did, the weight wouldn't come off. I finally went to a doctor and was
diagnosed with IBS - irritable bowel syndrome. I was scared as I had no
clue what this disease could do to me. After a few months of medication
for IBS, I started getting better, but every day was a struggle for me in
every way possible that you could think of. It seemed I had "caused" the
syndrome to come on, as the emotional effects of the car accident
started to come forward. The feelings of loneliness and a lack of
self-worth, which I had repressed in the past, had come to light. And
they were consumed by every thought.
By October, I physically felt like a new me but had no will power to
get out and do things, like meet up with my friends. So I knew there was
still something "wrong" me. It was no longer physical damage; it was
mental. This accident brought out issues of my childhood that I had
never really dealt with while growing up.
December comes around. Anxiety about the upcoming holidays forces me to
deal with my pain. I decided that I needed to talk to someone about the
pain I was feeling in my heart and how empty my heart was. Meanwhile,
I'm trying to work; take care of my daughter Shelby; maintain my
household; manage care of the pets; and travel for work while still
keeping myself looking happy for my daughter. In January, I started
dealing with the things that I can't change; the things that happened
that I had no control over as a child. I'm ok with that now.
This whole time I would not date or talk to friends; I pushed away
everyone I knew. I would even say that I pushed my daughter away to some
extent. There was one person that saw me every day and that was my
counter partner at work. She knew that what I was going through was the
hardest thing in my life - gaining weight from the stomach problem.
When you're told as a child that you are fat and ugly, you tend to
believe it even as a adult. One day I went to see a specialist regarding
my depression, although I hadn't realized that's what it was. Se wanted
to put on all kind of things that I felt I didn't need. But I wasn't the
one with a degree so I did what I was told. For a month felt numb, like
a zombie. Next month I told her that I worse. So she suggested alternate
treatments and I said ok. While doing what she asked, I found myself
again started thinking of all the things I use to do and wanted to do
those things again.
I started working out again, losing the weight and being happy with just
being alive . I did make some drastic changes to my life. I learned to
cry and not be this cold person anymore. I realized that I was a very
cold person inside that would never cry and admit that I had feelings or
anything like that. I found that this was good for me and I started
dating . I found that all people have hearts and that at any given time
that it could be taken away from us. When I started dating, I was
afraid that I could not give all of my self to someone. Over time I
learned how to talk to men about this, and I think by telling them what
all I had been through, they had looked up to me more than I had ever
looked up to myself, and admire me for the will power I have to keep
going and coping with all the issues.
As of March 7, 2005, I would say that I'm on the road to recovery. Some
days are better than others; some can still be tough and overwhelming
for one person. But I know what I want and that is to live a life as
happy as I can make it with as little or no hiccups at all. With all
the sadness in the world why would there be so many books on self help
if I was the only one out there with problems? I wake up now ready to
face the day rather then wanting to run from it. They say things happen
for a reason and that God will not give more than what you can handle.
There were times I did not believe in this. As I feel better I know this
is true and that all of the pain physically and mentally changed me for
the better. I think that now when I wake up, that I have more compassion
for others as where before I had no compassion or feelings. This has
been a very hard journey and learning experience but when I look back
at what I have gained, this makes me feel better, and has changed me
into the person I wanted to be.
Where Is the Human Internet Society ?
02/10/08
Where Is the Human Internet Society ?
Where Was I Then and Where I Am Today
Well it will be 4 years that has passed since the wheels turned in my life. I know not where to begin or finish. when writing about this ore in my life. Let me start here what makes memory come and go. Things that are not in our “meaning humans" life that we have control over. I would have to start where people who thrive to be not so kind, caring. These people are called not human like! In my eyes who enjoy the suffering of human life.
See I’ve Lived and learned all this in about 4 years that people love knowing what our weakness are, and they feed off the people having day to day problems. Like say blindness or hearing loss or even degenerate a person for someone’s issues in life, or saying childhood. The people that empower people for the common wealth by beating and mental abusing people "like me”. See I'm a women trying to make it in what men choose to say, and that's the mans world.
I'm 31 and have been through so many issues with child hood even adult hood, and not understanding why one person - "Meaning child ,men, women and animals" have to go and see so much hate for one women that just wanted one time in her life to be normal .As kids would say in school. That person or thing is not normal. See I was a girl that was never known for being at least average .So then thinking one day I thought I made it! Where I was good I would even say mastered in. All that I had thought I mastered in was gone taken from me. Why because of someone’s greed to make a buck off of a girl that couldn’t spell worth a shit nor read as fast as most people, and come to find out I was a child lived through our not so great Government system. I must say if that's what you want to call a "system". I would say a Non working system for me, and my Daughter Shelby.
That's when the reflection of my life was maid clear by me of our so called Government System worked liked. See in the eyes of the Government I was a ticking time bomb just waiting to unleash at root cause of our so called Government falling threw the cracks as they would call it or they would say "system" whatever it's all the same to me because yes I am the victim .See what frightens me most is how could a team of human beings meaning-America or as the world or not do or try to drive someone’s life to where I feel power less.
So what did I do? I fell and fell like a toddler learning how to walk for the first time. But see I never got to walk or run It was always crawling for me. Kind of like a person that really can’t walk or run. So I had to learn to be ok with crawling, and then I thought I was. Then one day month year this team of people pushed me down on my face. Kind of like how five year old kids not knowing the damage they may caused some poor child’s life one day. See but this team is not a child! They no what's write and wrong or do they? Has the world come to that to where people just take orders, and loose site of our human spirit.
So as this team enables me from doing things because my mouth may wreck of their losses in there wrong doing .So I fell and fell till there were no more bones to fall only thing that was left was my heart and my faith ,sprit in human rights were lost forever by man kind because we choose to agree before reading the contract on our very own lives we live as Humans Capital of the U.S.A .
So I would like to take the time, and ask where the Human Internet Society . While all this abuse is done via Internet and T.V. Radio, papers, and so forth .This is what I think it’s because we have "NO RIGHTS" in America people and thus the world choose not to open their eyes. I choose to see, and hear.Just no this you can choose to see my crying eyes filled with UN wanted rivers of sadness, and to hear my heart and soul dying. So I ask this Then what am I? If not Human
I NO I'm some kind of Human Bio study! If someone asked me if I was proud of my country I would so Hell No faster then the speed of light on that one. Through all the bad in my life this tops it. See because as a child I don’t have that much memory but as adult you seas to never forget, and that shall leave a bigger scare then the child hood memory because I never new them or thought about them nor did I want too.
So do I think something good will come of all this "Government Lie" that I’ve had to deal with? I think not, and if it does then it was the grace of GOD .I hope the thrashers have learned it's not nice playing with one’s soul. I think things will stay the same the richer get richer and the poor stay poorer, and the sicker will only die faster. So that the Government don’t have to pay social secretary. We will all drop like flies as if the plague came from god .I’m sure No won has taken the time to see that yet, and when they choose to see it . It will be to late because the world is gone in greed, and not in faith, hope, love.
So how do we the world go from here? I hope that my flesh and my bones, soul were good for something other then BIO HAZ!!!!
I’m going to share two defections with you. Let me say this They are not my words of defined.
• Human Relations: The study of a group behavior in order to achieve "desired" goals with minimum of effort and conflict between Individuals
EX-1
Beyond "Market Psychology" another now field of psychology has arisen, bused and the wish to understand, and "manipulate" the employee this is called human relations.
EX-2
Today’s secretary has to be a connoisseur of human relations (says wall street)
Thank you,
sorry if this was kind of long just had to write it like I see it .
Nadia S. Badilla
Where Is the Human Internet Society ?
Where Was I Then and Where I Am Today
Well it will be 4 years that has passed since the wheels turned in my life. I know not where to begin or finish. when writing about this ore in my life. Let me start here what makes memory come and go. Things that are not in our “meaning humans" life that we have control over. I would have to start where people who thrive to be not so kind, caring. These people are called not human like! In my eyes who enjoy the suffering of human life.
See I’ve Lived and learned all this in about 4 years that people love knowing what our weakness are, and they feed off the people having day to day problems. Like say blindness or hearing loss or even degenerate a person for someone’s issues in life, or saying childhood. The people that empower people for the common wealth by beating and mental abusing people "like me”. See I'm a women trying to make it in what men choose to say, and that's the mans world.
I'm 31 and have been through so many issues with child hood even adult hood, and not understanding why one person - "Meaning child ,men, women and animals" have to go and see so much hate for one women that just wanted one time in her life to be normal .As kids would say in school. That person or thing is not normal. See I was a girl that was never known for being at least average .So then thinking one day I thought I made it! Where I was good I would even say mastered in. All that I had thought I mastered in was gone taken from me. Why because of someone’s greed to make a buck off of a girl that couldn’t spell worth a shit nor read as fast as most people, and come to find out I was a child lived through our not so great Government system. I must say if that's what you want to call a "system". I would say a Non working system for me, and my Daughter Shelby.
That's when the reflection of my life was maid clear by me of our so called Government System worked liked. See in the eyes of the Government I was a ticking time bomb just waiting to unleash at root cause of our so called Government falling threw the cracks as they would call it or they would say "system" whatever it's all the same to me because yes I am the victim .See what frightens me most is how could a team of human beings meaning-America or as the world or not do or try to drive someone’s life to where I feel power less.
So what did I do? I fell and fell like a toddler learning how to walk for the first time. But see I never got to walk or run It was always crawling for me. Kind of like a person that really can’t walk or run. So I had to learn to be ok with crawling, and then I thought I was. Then one day month year this team of people pushed me down on my face. Kind of like how five year old kids not knowing the damage they may caused some poor child’s life one day. See but this team is not a child! They no what's write and wrong or do they? Has the world come to that to where people just take orders, and loose site of our human spirit.
So as this team enables me from doing things because my mouth may wreck of their losses in there wrong doing .So I fell and fell till there were no more bones to fall only thing that was left was my heart and my faith ,sprit in human rights were lost forever by man kind because we choose to agree before reading the contract on our very own lives we live as Humans Capital of the U.S.A .
So I would like to take the time, and ask where the Human Internet Society . While all this abuse is done via Internet and T.V. Radio, papers, and so forth .This is what I think it’s because we have "NO RIGHTS" in America people and thus the world choose not to open their eyes. I choose to see, and hear.Just no this you can choose to see my crying eyes filled with UN wanted rivers of sadness, and to hear my heart and soul dying. So I ask this Then what am I? If not Human
I NO I'm some kind of Human Bio study! If someone asked me if I was proud of my country I would so Hell No faster then the speed of light on that one. Through all the bad in my life this tops it. See because as a child I don’t have that much memory but as adult you seas to never forget, and that shall leave a bigger scare then the child hood memory because I never new them or thought about them nor did I want too.
So do I think something good will come of all this "Government Lie" that I’ve had to deal with? I think not, and if it does then it was the grace of GOD .I hope the thrashers have learned it's not nice playing with one’s soul. I think things will stay the same the richer get richer and the poor stay poorer, and the sicker will only die faster. So that the Government don’t have to pay social secretary. We will all drop like flies as if the plague came from god .I’m sure No won has taken the time to see that yet, and when they choose to see it . It will be to late because the world is gone in greed, and not in faith, hope, love.
So how do we the world go from here? I hope that my flesh and my bones, soul were good for something other then BIO HAZ!!!!
I’m going to share two defections with you. Let me say this They are not my words of defined.
• Human Relations: The study of a group behavior in order to achieve "desired" goals with minimum of effort and conflict between Individuals
EX-1
Beyond "Market Psychology" another now field of psychology has arisen, bused and the wish to understand, and "manipulate" the employee this is called human relations.
EX-2
Today’s secretary has to be a connoisseur of human relations (says wall street)
Thank you,
sorry if this was kind of long just had to write it like I see it .
Nadia S. Badilla
Monday, January 28, 2008
The choice of not hearing of a cild of god
I have cried and begged for human mercy on my child like soul.I see that No human hears them or care to. God says that if you choose to not hear the cry help.That makes you part of not stopping and rendering aid to those in need.Kinda like you see or hear someone being hurt by greed or rape or the things that the devil make not want to see by the grace of god. then you shall too die in hell. when a angel asks for or anything like care love friend ship freely . But she again is not heard.she feels as if one word comes out her soft child like lips are wrong. for people not human like have made her this way. I hope that all the money and the greed of all this help you sleep .while heart aches because Im chosen not to be heard . please look at the back of the bible and you shall see your life by those words.Ive tried to do whats right for customers but when Im blocked or not having the rights of what we call the USA . well my time is up do what you want to me because what I do god will forgive me because I was not heard.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Wow Guess what I found HA HA . the dumb girl has found more papers .They are not mine I asked a friend if I could look at them he said sure.So the dumb girl thought I will look up what I NO best.I found something I think is big how easy someone can learn to fly a plain and get the zones of the world that are bad,and dang I thought taxes was bad. Heads may may bow now. I will take them one at a time . Oh yea I have boxes and boxes and have SSN
Monday, January 14, 2008
When Shall The Hurt Stop
Because of one mans greed the others fallow because as humans we do as what were told.Hears one thing that shows you were the power of human and life it self is going. If you dont stand up in what means dear to your heart you will never walk this earth happy.People need to stop wanting what they don't need in in life.The foots steps of this shame will lead the sadness of a daughter named Smelby and Boo Bo and Loving mother that tried to live right, and do as wons told by the laws. I hope that all of you see that we are not doing that ,and make change now because if not our kids will kill each other and so forth.The greed of this chip the curse of my ever lasting life never seems to end.what you are living is a empty soul as if zombies that feel no life for other people.Take whats left your souls and spirts as science needs to stop because
as humans and mans wrong doing.When shall the world no of what science as done to a child and the only family she has a mother that just tried to be a better parent then I ever had.As I say this to all that will hear this child like body with feelings that hurt with no words to share or speak of.I say this and I mean if my boo bo has a tumor your fixing him and then he will need a bird.So this where I say I forgive but let this be a lesson to science. God didn't make this world so you could destroy it.Well telling me things that could be wrong with me needs to stop NOW . My Name is Nadia Sunshine Badilla and Im human I have a heart and soul . So please take time to remember that if not man will conker all and the world will seace to live on .
as humans and mans wrong doing.When shall the world no of what science as done to a child and the only family she has a mother that just tried to be a better parent then I ever had.As I say this to all that will hear this child like body with feelings that hurt with no words to share or speak of.I say this and I mean if my boo bo has a tumor your fixing him and then he will need a bird.So this where I say I forgive but let this be a lesson to science. God didn't make this world so you could destroy it.Well telling me things that could be wrong with me needs to stop NOW . My Name is Nadia Sunshine Badilla and Im human I have a heart and soul . So please take time to remember that if not man will conker all and the world will seace to live on .
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